Straight Jacket

Blissful hatred
anger beyond reach
vileness unrivaled

blackened soul
charred unrecognizable
disembodied emotion

bitterness with kindness
meaningless words
almost stoic

violent love
broken spirit
bloodied hands

vacant smile
staring to nothingness
deprived of normal thought

At a Loss for Passion

What is the difference
why can it not be
there is a connection

a fire raging
rapid hearts but from a word
enticing exuberant admiration

the touch has not felt
kiss not given
lack of affection

loss of words
unknown destination
drifting within possibility

want slowly begets need
regret breeds fear
love is love

Protection of a Shadow

Cover of shadows
silently I follow
watching over you

uncanny love
overcome by shyness
with no voice of my own

safety ensured
I can rest easy
as your protector

you see me daily
but never notice
for I stand beside you always

walking alone
within a cover of black
seeing you home safe

Stirring Emotion

Scared and nervous
the butterflies inside
happy but nervous all at once

Your Passion
the light in your eyes
this is how I feel

at a loss for words
only this a I can write
the way you make me feel

out of sight
your on my mind
looking at you, silence

how can I tell you
what you make me feel
shyness overrides

your smile
lights up my darkness
your eyes steal my heart

the touch of your skin
electricity in my veins
but my silence prevents

Unspoken Admiration

Feelings stir
begin anew
something thought lost

But as often as I see
I feel this every time I look in her blues
hear her voice

but I cannot find the words
why oh why
I wish I could just say

these feeling give me unrest
need for release
wanting and knowing

the passion I sense
hidden within
yearning for redemption

would a kiss
the slightest touch
could that be enough

awaken the spirit
join the worlds
become one and thy self

Shall it Be

Emotions akin
two souls lost in time
a world apart

searching the night sky
wishing on a star
hoping for the love of life

behind the glow of a screen
clicking of the keys
dancing eyes

message sent with a wink
received with a heart
a friendship buds

with time and patience
love and care
will it bloom

Desire?

Intimidation of desire
hand in hand
both my burden and my craving

to converse with an Angel
whom I hardly know
how can I desire

might it be just a common interest
may it be the contact
of this I know not

a happy confusion
the only way to describe
this is what I feel

finally I hear the music
the missing part of me
near completion but not quite

Thoughts from Work

The night is quite
low murmur of voices
soft hum of the computers

The cleaners quietly move about
a sea of blue across the center floor
slowly fade to black sleep

click, keeping mine awake
all that kills the time away
a paper, pen and my mind

I sit alone everyone around gone
enjoying the solitude
afraid of my thoughts

although it would be normal
tonight is different
someone new holds my thoughts

Bitter ends

In the bluest skies
see the rain
albeit the sun shines

Deep sadness hidden cosmetically
all just a facade
true feeling evident

desire wanes the heart
whittling away judgment
needing to feel loved

spark to life
wake upon a new existence
vision through untainted eyes

touch is a unfelt experience
sensations electric and tingling
kiss illicit

flowing blood
hearts shattered
escape back to darkness

Moving On

Looking back
days long past
Smiles fade to black

laughs die away
echoes of joy
tears dried up

all memories of life
reflecting in the mind
a soul is warmed

darkness brought to light
the joyous sounds of laughter
crying those happy tears

new beginnings
looking forward
life is good

Alone

I sit in a crowed place
surrounded by people
yet I am alone

sitting with friends
yet still in solitude
am I that different

I am seen and heard
acknowledged not
every now and then incite a smile

across the room I see eyes
but they look away as quick
a smile is nothing anymore

darkness in a world of light
such misery within a grin
the living ghost

do they really see me
just drifting through life
forever unnoticed

love, what does it mean
is it knowing or feeling
within sight or touch

it is felt but how
desire entices
creates the feeling

making an addiction
creating a disease
that entraps life

every turn this is seen
day by day
always in sight

is it blind
or can it see
could it be chance

all within life
to create life
full circle

Things That Were

Streaming tears
eyes of red
sobs of misery

fleeting sadness
growing hatred
burning hot

so vile a feeling
despising all
seeking solitude

no more please no more
I can't take it
let this end

why is it only me
always alone
forever hated

so what now
can it change
shall I be denied

all this used to be
all under lock and key
to be forgotten forever more

Intimate Anticipation

Heart set ablaze
a soul awakens
reflected in the eyes

she strides gracefully
without acknowledging
slight sidelong glances

eyes of passion
senses a stir
along with sweaty palms

smiling knowingly
she half dances while walking
sparkle in her eyes

fingers caress the neck
orbs lock to one another
ecstasy in her silken kiss

electric touch
pins and needles
spine shivers